When you feel sad, write it down !!!

 Sometimes I don't understand why I suddenly feel so down about my progress in Climas. 

I have to be honest about this. 

So, I felt down when I realized I couldn't impress Brian. 

I felt down when Brian mentioned his project, which is related to my topic, but doesn't involve me. I don't know, I shouldn't feel this way. Fortunately, he does not assign me additional work since I am also struggling with courses. Maybe, if I have to reflect on myself again, it hurts me because I felt that he sees me as less capable. I hate to be seen as less capable. And it's not his fault, he never thinks that I am less capable. It is just my feeling, it hurts me when I think someone sees me as less capable. 

Takeaway message:

Brian Neves sees me as less capable. NEVER

Do not take it personally, just do it. Do not be arrogant, keep humble. This is just not your time. This is not the time for you to shine or impress someone. Keep making progress, always remember that your goal of studying in the US is to learn, gain knowledge, and perspective. You can be an ordinary girl, breathing the same air as the great one, and still be alive. 

Keep making progress, and never think bad way about Brian. He is a good man who opens many opportunities for you. You know, sometimes he is not in a good mood because his son is sick. I hope Ethan is doing well soon. 

JUST DO IT, KEEP HUMBLE, KEEP MAKING PROGRESS. Your goal here is to learn. 

NB: Ya Allah, semoga orang-orang di Jakarta mau diajak kerjasama. Aamiin

Alia Sept 16 2025 

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