I AM PRECIPITATING

 AGAIN, I CRIED AGAIN THIS WEEK....


and that was not the worst part, I cried in front of Sonia. C'mon, it is Sonia. I tried to hide my feelings, but I couldn't stand the feeling of failing again and again. She tried to comfort me, and it warmed my heart. I really wanna do my best for the next exam, at least I am improving. Sonia is so nice, she gave me input to come to her office hours every week. Yup, so this week, I have to cover some modules and discuss my difficulty with her next week. 

The good things about this week are I tried to keep my routine of coming early to campus, and I read Al-Quran after sholat, I am not sure about this, but I think my English is improving :D . Also, I talked to Brian today, and he asked me to join the project group. I am so excited to work with them, it can help me to improve my skills. I really wanna do that risk team, which closely relates to the community. Yeah, I like being involved in the community. However, I just remembered that Americans and Indonesians are totally different in every aspect including the communication and behaviour towards the hazard. So, if I want to take this part I must improve my English soon and learn about American habit. 

But is it okay if Ime the answer to Zhuo's homework? I am not comfortable doing that again, so I think I will try my best to do the homework myself. I feel so embarrassed even now to write Maylee's work and even though she was fine about that. 

Okay, done about campus.. 

I met Pandji Pragiwaksono, He performed in Courtyard Cafe Illini Union. He is handsome and so respectful. Actually, since he came to the United States he delivered the american jokes, you know like sex, bad behaviour and sometimes giving the bad side of Indonesia character. Yeah, it is okay since it is comedy purpose. I still enjoyed it. Also, I watched Sarah's boyfriend comedy club. It was funny :D




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