I FEEL BETTER

 I feel much better this week. I accepted the fact that my process at the start was not easy, so it is normal to  be a fool :D 

My Indonesian friend in Tari Saman really helped me to realize that I am a happy girl. I feel myself happier with them. I can be more focused on my studies after some relaxation, which is dancing for two hours :D

Brian is also a nice person. I am so grateful that Allah sent me here to meet Brian who can encourage me to explore what I am interested in this field. He never puts me under any pressure about my research, he is like giving me freedom and time to reflect on what I really like. Thank you, God, for giving me this opportunity to work with nice people. 

I am also happy about how I can read and understand the paper, wow it is a significant improvement. I can understand CCN and have an overview about what I will present for the final project. About meteorology dynamics, I think I can understand the context faster than before. I can understand Zhuo's notes and do some linearization equation. I am so proud of my self for this week. 

I do really wanna appreciate myself more than before. I think it is very useless to blame my self for my failure after the effort that I put into it. No matter how bad the scores, that is my achievement. I should be proud because I studied really hard for it. 

Heads up, Alia. You have Allah to talk to, You have Allah to ask for help. You have Allah to solve your difficulties. You can do better each day, you will feel better each day, and you will learn more each day. 

Ps. I miss my family and friends :( 

PLEASE COME TO OFFICE HOURS NEXT WEEK AND TELL ZHUO AND SONIA THAT YOU WILL NOT FAIL THE NEXT EXAM :D



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